Please know that I would love to learn of and from your surrender, if you’d like to share it. I would like to share my own true surrender as my life continues to unfold. God’s presence in my life is one I feel driven to share. To write it all down, although I am afraid I may never find the words to adequately describe our Lord’s amazing grace in my life.
“Surrender the Fight,” because as hard as I tried, I could not think of a better word than “fight.” My own surrender, what I consider my own deep down truth of surrender, feels like a fight.
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.James 4:7-8
Oh to be sure, I feel deeply loved, free and that I am overflowing with joy and love. I feel settled; at peace. And yet I keep finding (becoming aware of) thoughts and feelings that only belong to the old me. Feelings of worry, overthinking, and I find myself slipping into the ultra-focus my old self used to win whatever battle I was facing.
What? Wait! “I gave this all to God. My faith is all and completely in our Lord Father!” Gosh. The fight. I feel as if I am fighting myself. My surrender is real. From both my heart and mind. And yet, the enemy (or is it me?) puts these over complicated, worrisome and anxious thoughts into my mind and it takes a bit before I realize that this is none of my business any more.
My history with surrender is the snatch and run. I find myself lost and surrounded by strangers and disaster, and then when I am finally beaten down and exhausted I cry out to the Lord, begging Him to lift me, to carry me away from the hurt, confusion and mess.
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.James 4:10
God is all that is good and right and perfect and He always comes. He always rescues me and builds me back up, making me strong again. The joy always returns.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.Romans 15:13
Along with the strength and joy, so does also the confidence that my old self worked so hard for, and so long towards returns. I refer to “my old self,” because I see that confidence now in a different light. Jesus’s light.
When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”John 8:12
Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self.Matthew 16:25 (MSG)
Do you see a person wise in their own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for them.Proverbs 26:12
The confidence I am referring to is that confidence that encourages me to now snatch back all I gave over to God and move forward, ahead of God and His plan. Rewriting it on my own, I am sure, because that never ends well.
For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.Matthew 16:25 (NIV)
I call out to our Lord, and ask that He remove those sneaking thoughts, reminding myself that I am surrendered in faith and that I have nothing to fear. I will continue to praise God and thank Him each morning, pray, chat and invite Jesus to accompany me throughout the day ahead and ask that the Holy Spirit help me to adjust the cross I carry with me.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.Proverbs 3:5-6
Maybe you already know all this and are smiling as you read and remember your own surrender. Maybe you never felt the fight I am referring to, and if not please know I am nothing but happy for you. I laugh about it too, go ahead, you can laugh. However long it takes for me to understand something, I eventually get there!
The written account of my own surrender begins with Surrender It All.
May our Father in Heaven protect and love you always.
An update about With Hope & Joy: I am working right now, behind the scenes, to improve everything. My love for God and His Word is the beyond everything else in my soul. My intention is to provide for you is what I looked for when I began to move closer to God.