My mind has been overwhelmed with one word, one feeling so strong it fills every bit of me. I have been trying to find the words to share this with you for weeks now. It is so much more in every way than anything I have ever consciously been sure of, wanted or decided.
As I pray each morning, usually as I am walking to work, I ask God the Father to guide me as I carry my cross and to remind myself to call out if ever and whenever I feel overwhelmed by thoughts or feelings that I do not want. But for weeks now, maybe even longer, and recently insistently, I ask myself, “Have I ever truly surrendered to God?” My intention is to always, forevermore going forward to be completely surrendered to God.
Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me.”Luke 9:23
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.Ephesians 2:10
Surrender to God; every moment of every day. I want and pray to our heavenly Father to help me not only to surrender but to keep me from doing what I have done in the past; surrender pieces of me, then snatch back what I have handed over to our Lord, thinking “I can do this now”, yeah, not so much.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.Matthew 6:33-34
Without fail my past has proven the sequence of what will unfold: I hand everything over to God, start to feel rejuvenated and as if I am now or once again on the right path and without realizing what’s happening (what I am doing), I run and snatch it all back out of the Father’s hands and take off (usually at a sprint). Running ahead, once again, with no conscious thought of anything but carrying my own load (in my mind, “as I should be”).
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.2 Corinthians 10:5
Well, we here know how that works out for us. Without God in control, there is no control. Oh sure, there are fleeting moments that feel like happiness and we can still see the beauty of the world God gave us. Eventually though, for myself, I look around and peer ahead and behind searching for the familiar and realize that once again, I am lost.
How many times has the Lord come searching for me, calling my name, leading me (sometimes carrying me) back to the path He has made? The old me would feel shame, but I feel no shame. All my mistakes, all my failings; all were planned and known long ago by my Creator. I am new.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.Romans 8:28
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”Matthew 26:41
I want to fully and permanently surrender my mind, my body and my will back to my Father in heaven, my Creator. I want to be fully His to use as He created me to be! Don’t we all? To be completely and utterly filled with the joy that we are promised? To truly be what each of us, as parts of one body, were created to be?
For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will – to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.Ephesians 1:4-6
With Hope & Joy is here to offer you hope and joy. We could help each other along on this momentous and glorious choice and finally give over to the only One who has true control. The Father who loves us so dearly and has a much better plan for each of us than any of us could possibly hope to imagine.